Living life, don't you cry 
My life, pain is God 
Many nights, painful thoughts occur 
Yell at me again, I'm numb 
In denial, I tried to be your friend 
I tried to be a good boy 
All I see, a hate deep inside 
Startle me, someone save me 
Now these memories fill my heart 
They bury me 
All I want to do is kill you 
(You are not my real mother, I'll beat and stab and f*** her ) (x4) 
Looking back, I was never ever right, you were my step mom 
who always wanted me out of your sight 
I would come walkin' in and I'd say hello but you'd slap me 
And you'd make some f***ed up comment about my clothes, but I tried to 
let it pass 
But the pictures in my head were with you with a knife up your ass 
Laying dead, so I popped some more caps in your ass now your son is 
not so good 
Mother f***ing bitch never try to blame me! 
You make me lie, it hurt so 
All I want to do is kill you (x4) 
(You are not my real mother, I'll beat and stab and f*** her ) (x2) 
Wish you were dead now 
Now, right now 
How can I cry over someone I never loved? (x2) 
Never loved (x2)