Am I'm going back home, C Gonna work for my own, G Gonna try and forget what you've done to this heart of mine, G And just keep lying and say I'm fine. Am I keep kicking my wall, C Drinking and smoking, G To keep away the feeling, G That I'm just gonna fall. Am Pushed a razor against me a few times, C Spent most my days in bed, trying not to cry. G All I've ever known is you, G Guess I can't say I know what to do. Am Talked to your mom the other week, C Told me you'd gone to some East-coast beach, G Searching for one of those record deals G With the devil right behind, biting your heels. Am I hope you get one, C C And I'll be here killing time with a bottle, G Wiping away each and every little tear. G (Instrumental) Am Got into it with this one girl, C Been trying to give her my whole world, G But I know she's not quite the pearl G That I know you to be. Am She's more of a diamond, C And she barely keeps me from dying. G We have sex without much protection, G Probably to keep us together, I reckon. Am All I've got is half of her, C C And whatever drug gets me higher; don't know where I wanna go, G So I just wanted you to know, G I'm not doing too poor-ly. Am Don't know if I'll make it past twenty, C Since it's sometimes hard when you're not with me, G But I don't blame you, G Everything I do ends up being shitty. Am Just keep thinking of you, C Choking on the memories G Of hazel eyes and swimming pools, G Trying to believe that I'm not the fool. Am Going back home to good old New Mexico, C Gonna try to forget what I know, G And just go and go and go G To wherever and whatever's unknown.