Dear Matthew 
I like you a lot 
I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and I 
respect that 
I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future 
and want to come visit me in California I would be open to spending 
time with you 
and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song 
Dear Jonathan 
I liked you too much 
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely 
about themselves 
and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time 
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think 
of the early 90's 
you face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday 
Dear Terrance 
I love you muchly 
you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and 
supportive 
and 
nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in and 
pushing you 
away 
I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry 
in front 
of you for the first time 
you were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what was 
wrong with 
me 
Dear Marcus 
You rocked my world 
you had a charismatic way about you with the women and 
you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let 
me get 
away with kicking me own ass 
but I would never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you 
though 
and that stopped us from going any further than we did 
and it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun 
Dear Lou 
We learned so much 
I realize we won't be able to talk for some time and I understand that 
as I do 
you 
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could 
we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives 
I will always have your back and be curious about you about your 
career your 
whereabouts