I've been sittin' here trying to find myself i get behind myself i need to rewind myself looking for the payback listen for the playback they say that every man bleeds just like me and i feel like number one but yet i'm last in line i watch my younger son and it helps to pass the time i take to many pills it helps to ease the pain i made a couple dollar bills but still i feel the same everybody knows my name they say it way out loud a lot of folks f*** with me it's hard to hang out in crowds i guess that's the price you pay to be some big shot like i am out stretched hands and one night stands still i can't find love And when your walls come tumbling down I will always be around (repeat 2X) People don't know about the things i say and do they don't understand about the shit that i've been through, it's been so long since i've been home i've been gone, i've been gone for way too long maybe i forgot all the things I miss Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this, I said it too many times and i still stand firm you get what you put in and people get what they deserve, still i ain't seen mine No I ain't seen mine I've been giving just ain't been gettin' I've been walking down that line So I think I'll keep walking with my head held high i'll keep moving on and only God knows why Only God... only God Only God knows why Only God... knows ... why, why, why only God knows why Take me to the river hey Take me to the river