Play song on Caop 3 

Verse 1
G
I’m having trouble sleeping 
Am
There’s a deep ache in my soul
G                                            C           D
To be sought after, loved and held so close
G 
My clumsy self wants to be 
Am
Vulnerable in your love
G                                        C                                   D
My life to be worthwhile to never stop holding your hands

Chorus
G                                           C
No I won’t endure December, I’ll embrace it 
           Am                                  C                           D
I want the best me with the best you come the new year
G                                    C 
I will seek holiness before I seek you
          Am                                       C                    D
In my complex world I won’t stop believing in faithfulness
         G
This December

Verse 2
G
Not in consulting 
AM
The cloudy and the cold
G                                              C         D
Not in emotional spending will you be found
G
Not in vaulting up my risks
AM
Not in shaming myself to isolation 
G                                        C                           D
Not in counting calories or running my heart ragged 

Chorus

G
I’m having trouble sleeping 
Am
There’s a deep ache in my soul
G                                            C           D
To be sought after, loved and held so closely 
          G
This December