and it's been a while
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since i first saw you
and it's been a while
since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while since i could call you

and everything i can remember
as f***ed up as it all may seem
the consequences that are rendered 
i stretch myself beyond my means

and it's been a while
since i couldnt say that i wasnt addicted
and it's been a while
since i couldnt say i love myself as well
and it's been a while
since i've gone and f***ed things up 
just like i always do
and it's been a while
but all that shit seems to disappear
when i'm with you

and everything i can remember
as f***ed up as it all may seem
the consequences that I've rendered 
have gone and f***ed things up again yeah

why must i feel this way
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

and it's been a while 
since i could look at myself straight
and it's been a while since i said i'm sorry
and it's been a while
since i've seen the way the candles light your face
and it's been a while but i can still remember just the way you taste

and everything i can remember
as f***ed up as it all may seem to be
i know it's me
i cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

and it's been a while
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since i said i'm sorry